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i got a twisted thought about life and art. that is what i love, life and art.
when i was younger (16-17) i used to love a lot of artists, great artists world wide known, like Norman Foster. I loved his work. I was very into books reading about him and looking at pictures that made me feel so overwhelmed about what a person can do in his life, the achievements you make are part of a big dream, something you never noticed was always there. i also wrote him an email asking him for some photographer that had worked photoshooting his biuldings. he answered me back and i was so happy it was norman himself who wrote the email. i was very lucky girl for being such a southern highschool kid. I threw myself into architecture and i also went to uni studying it passionately, believeing it was that what i wanted to do with my life. Still i was too young to know what i wanted to do, i mean, you don't know what you like to do until you get to do it and realize it was at all what you expected from it. it wasn't what i was expecting. but again, my mother showed me the way to get thru it. she said: why don't you study for filmmaking?. i accepted, i went to the film school. i started to study some different expresions of art, like clasics, and things we actually don't get to see live. it made me want to know more about those expressions, i mean, knowing people who knew about art and going to places where i could see art. i went to many exhibitions in santiago and i started studying contemporary art, (CONTEMPORARY not as movement, i mean, contemporary people who's still alive and making stuff. not chilean, of course, i'm so used to foreign) and i went into a whole new world of young people who's mixing all of ages in their work. but still it was too artsy for me. people who are obsessed with the idea of doing something that has never been shown. i'm so sick of that!. i just want to see something beautiful and meaningless. it's not our time to try to find a new conceptualism about art, it's our time to show what we are living, it's our time to use technology and make it easy to work with. it's our time to produce beutiful stuff. lots of artists are makin really weird work with very little pieces working together. not big deal. simple, not minimal. simple in its manufacture. sometimes i feel like art is like kindergarten where you just play wth puzzles and create new silly systems. artist like Haroon Mirza, he's young and he works beautifully with sound systems. i wanted to get to him and i wrote an e mail asking about his theremin works. he answered me back so nicely, and i was so happy that the more i knew about art, the more it was easy to get to THE ARTIST. it's stupid phrase but it's ok, it's mine. i felt something like his work could've been shown in a chilean museum and i also felt it would be a very popular work, because it's so beautiful and tiny the way he put his pieces together and create so sensible work, something so close to people's senses.
so proud of myself that all these short years i have learnt things that makes me special. things that make people want to get to know me and my work. this is our time, kids.